I caught myself today imagining all of the things I'm going to buy when I graduate and get real job. I often have this tendency, to forget what I've learned in the last twenty-two years of my life...the lesson that joy comes from the simple. It seems that whenever we imagine these things what makes them desirable isn't the material object...it's what we anticipate it will brings us...whether that be status, temporary high, or a sense of control. Yet, I always am wanting more...because every time I get something I realize it doesn't give me what I thought it would. Things just seem to clutter life; make it more complicated. There's nothing wrong these things by themselves, but I think it's how I attempt to chase the things that won't bring what I want. I want to feel connected, complete, and content. I keep having to be reminded that I feel these things when I am resting completely in the simple truths of life. Do you ever drive and see that sunset and get this warm feeling? This feeling that everything you were all worried about...simply doesn't matter anymore. Time seems to stand still and you grasp that moment and wish it to never end. In the Bible Jesus teaches us this truth about resting in the simple things in life. I am always drawn to the section of Psalms where it talks about lying in green pastures and led beside still waters. That's the feeling I want...to be at peace...that's what I feel in those moments of sunsets.

When I look back at my past I see so much of my time wasted in pursuit of true joy. It's like I don't want to believe what's really true. I must always seek to find out for myself whether the things of this world really aren't fulfilling, and it's taxing. One can acquire a lot of baggage from all these pursuits. My journey now is to clear my heart and my mind of all the memories of the past pursuits. A life spent chasing the world is so draining and when you're done there's a strong sense of boredom. The excitement you expected isn't there. The rush of rebellion has dissapeared, and all you are left with is a sense of what if...what if I hadn't wasted my time doing this or that but simply trusted that true fulfillment is found in God. I guess this is life though...that lesson. Some learn quicker than others. I continue to hope that finally...I've learned mine. So I set out on a quest to discover more of these moments of sunrises, these moments where I can truly feel that I am resting in the palm of a Savior. Sure I'll fall down again, and attempt to drift to other distractions but I pray I'm always pulled back up by the simple truths and that each fall opens my eyes wider.