Life keeps moving. Each and every day minute by minute the world ticks on by. I wake up in the morning and sometimes I just feel like life doesn't make sense. Life feels empty. It's days like these where I just float in reality, stuck in time and that sense that life keeps moving forward whether I like it or not. This is the story of life; either you move with it, or it will drag you along.
Some days the sky clouds and for no apparent reason life doesn't seem so grand any more. I look for inspiration but find none. It's times like these that I question myself; the person I've become. I grow skeptical of who I am and how I see myself. I often wonder if I have some deep rooted issue that affects me in ways I can't see. But perhaps it's not me, but the affects of this sad world rubbing off on me. You look in people's eyes and there's pain. Pain that's been numbed by the addictions of this world. Perhaps its these gray days that reveal to me what is really going on in life. It takes me out of my sun shiny day world and into a world much darker. It's a world where people feel true despair and loneliness. A world where each waking moment is a struggle. And maybe I am beginning to see that I do nothing to reach out and attempt to make the pain go away. All I do is live in my beautiful and make believe world where every day is filled with good things. I don't think life was meant to live in pure happiness. I think to truly live life we should feel the pain of this world. We should feel the pain of those who feel like they can't go on, like they can't take one more breath. I think we were all called to realize this harsh reality and to do something about it. The question is what am I doing about it, and the answer is one that I don't want to face. The answer requires me to step outside of my controlled and pretty life and face this broken world I live in. Today life isn't so great...and just maybe, that's the way it should be.
(written to State Of Trance 2010 Part 1 by Armin Van Buuren)
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